Tuesday, February 26, 2013

I Didn't Leave The Republican Party, The Republican Party Left Me

I just did something I never thought I would do. I changed my party affiliation to Independent, or in Kansas it is called "Not Affiliated With Any Party" Which I think better sums up what I am feeling.

I was driving home today listening to Mark Levin talk about how New Jersey Governor Chris Christie and Florida Governor Rick Scott have turn-coated and are now adopting Obamacare for their states. I used to like Chris Christie simply because Ann Coulter was such a cheerleader for him. But you can't trust anyone in Washington, especially journalists and pundits. Turns out she is an establishment Republican as well. I was listening to Christie's remarks about how he is so popular because he is doing what Republicans on the federal level won't do.. "reach across the aisle to work with Democrats." Something inside of me switched off right when I heard that. Because what I know is that we haven't had a true conservative in the White House since Ronald Reagan. Reagan played offense and made everyone around him open up under their own assumptions. He used his power for good. He never let power go to his head. Not true with today's Republican. There are only a handful of true Constitutional Conservatives left, and it seems like more and more are raising the white flag everyday out of self-preservation. Christie and Scott aren't doing what is best for their state, they are caving into the desire to be liked. And I figured out a long time ago that when liberals hate you, then you know you are doing the right thing.. When they praise you and David Letterman invites you on his show.. you have become just another insider who lost his fight and gave up and now is dancing with the devil with a smile on your face and apparently stuffing a doughnut in your mouth on national television to appear self-deprecating. Meanwhile you are laying the foundation to screw your constituents out of their freedoms, finances, and futures.

Republicans today wait for liberals to make moves and then act out against it. But WHY not stand on your principles and make them act against it? Essentially what Governor Christie is saying is that the already compromising Republicans aren't compromising enough for his taste. He then proceeded to enact Obamacare in his state. Does that sound like a Conservative? It isn't even close. It sounds like a man who obviously loves to over-indulge, whether it be on food, fame, or power.

So it hit me that I cannot stay with these clowns. Because it isn't limited to Rick Scott and Chris Christie. The virus is spreading all throughout Washington and through the powers that be in many of our state governments. I am a Christian conservative. What the Republicans are now would have been far left of even John F. Kennedy. What business do I have associating with them? It doesn't mean I won't vote Republican. But I am not going to affiliate myself with a party that left me standing on my own principles years ago.

I will be voting Tea Party or Constitution Party or whatever you want to call it. If they stay true to what they have been so far they will have my vote. I want someone to go to Washington and lay on the grenade if they have to. You might have to be a one-termer to get something done. But it's the rest of us who suffer from these idiots who get in office and then give up everything they campaigned on because they want the power. So they play ball.

I'm done playing ball.

So long Republican Party!

Saturday, February 23, 2013

Leaving Facebook and The Changes Coming To The Life And Times

I have been doing this blog since 2005. Some years more than others. On May 1st I am going off the grid. I am erasing my Facebook account and possibly my Twitter as well. This is going to free up time for the upcoming changes in my life. I'm getting married!
So that leaves a lot more time on my hands. Time I want to use more to make an impact on those around the internet, both for Christ, for humor, and politically. So I am planning on blogging daily, maybe more than once a day. Maybe 10 times a day.. it just depends on what is going on in my life.... Here is my basic plan...

* On FB if I think of something humorous or read something funny I post it instantly. So I am going to use this site just like that. Their may be one sentence posts.

* God is laying conviction on my heart about the condition of the American Church and it's downfall into worldliness and mediocrity. So if you disagree with me, PLEASE don't be afraid to comment and let's have a discussion.  Some call it judgement. I just call it obvious.

* America is in shambles. I am done with the "republicans" and Obama is THE worst president in history. It literally has nothing to do with the fact that he happens to also be Black. We are going to discuss the downfall of our country and why I think it's time we make the Tea Party legit and kick Karl Rove and Chris Christie back to the hole that they came from.. Live free or die!

* And LOTS of great funny photos and YouTube videos to make you laugh and entertain you.

Lastly, I am still considering a name change and a possible switch over to Wordpress.

So I hope to build my audience. If I don't.. I don't care, I will do it anyway.

"Be kind to me, or treat me mean... I'll make the most of it, I'm an extraordinary machine."

Wednesday, February 13, 2013

Living With Emetophobia

We all have fears. Even the toughest guy who says "I ain't afraid of nuthin'" has a fear or two hidden deep away in his sub-conscience. But fears come in two categories: rational, and irrational.

Since about age 5 I have dealt with a semi-debilitating phobia that at times has influenced my life in very negative ways.
It's called Emetophobia.
Emetophobia is an intense, irrational fear or anxiety pertaining to vomiting. This specific phobia can also include subcategories of what causes the anxiety, including a fear of vomiting in public, a fear of seeing vomit, a fear of watching the action of vomiting, or fear of being nauseated.

Why is it irrational?
How many people do you know that have died, or have been even injured by vomiting or seeing someone vomit? I mean you hear of heorin-addled musicians and actors who died from choking on it after a heavy night of partying. Usually a Xanax/alcohol cocktail is somehow involved. But 99.9% of us have never even heard of a friend of family member who has been seriously affected medically by the act of vomiting or being around someone vomiting. So essentially we are afraid of how it makes us feel psychologically instead of the actual act itself.

My story..
It's happened to all of us. There I was in Kindergarten. We had "calender time" every Monday morning. We would sit cross legged around the calender and the teacher would talk about the week's events. Then I heard that tell-tell noise behind me. I look over just in time to see a little boy vomiting all over himself and the floor. It was gross. We went back to our desks, the janitor came and cleaned it up.. we went on with our day. All the other kids finished the day as normal. Maybe a little grossed out, but nothing more. I, though, could not stop replaying the incident over and over in my head like a broken record player. Something inside me felt different. And it affected me way more than it should have. In fact I had trouble going back to school every day that week. I was terrified it would happen again.
From then on things changed. If I saw someone holding their stomach I wanted to run away. And I did. I would find anyway I had to to get out of the classroom and go hide in a bathroom stall for 30-45 minutes. If someone did get sick I would put my hands over my ears and close my eyes as hard as I could until the situation had passed.. and then after that the rest of the day was ruined for me. And then going to school the next few days was so hard to do, because.."what if it happens again".
Things have not changed much. I am engaged with a future step-daughter. Last week she got sick. I stayed away from my fiance's apartment for two days after she was better. Then I got sick anyway. I threw up for a few hours one morning. All my hiding didn't help me. And now my fiance is sick with it too.. And I am doing what I can to avoid her. Avoiding someone who is sick is not necessarily a bad thing, they need their rest, and leaving them alone helps stop the spread of germs. However, why am I absolutely terrified of seeing her get sick, seeing my future step daughter get sick, or getting sick myself?
We all agree that throwing up is not fun. Nobody wishes to get sick. But once we get better we move on. But for me it affects my habits, it affects my relationships, it affects where I go, and how I act in certain places. The aftermath can even bring on some slight depression and lots of anxiety.
I took my step-daughter to school today, and passing little kids in the hall made me anxious. It's like I see them as potential time-bombs just waiting to vomit. Especially this year when the virus is going around so bad.

Why does this happen to us?
If you are reading this and you are an Emetophobe, you have no doubt experienced people laughing at you, telling you to "suck it up", "quit being a baby", ect.. But it doesn't work that way. Sure we can fight through the anxiety.. but it still affects us.
Here is my theory on why vomiting is such a life changing event for us. First of all.. there are three types of Emetophobes:
1.Some only fear seeing someone throw up, hearing, smelling, touching, and being around that person or the vomit itself.
2. Some people are deathly afraid of throwing up themselves.. The act of vomiting scares them to the point of total avoidance. Some even to the point of anorexia because they fear having food in their stomach. I have read about some who say they will never have children because of fear of morning sickness, and the inevitability that their child will one day vomit. (Ironically a vast majority of these people rarely vomit, if ever. They will actually psyche themselves out of vomiting even if they have the stomach flu.)
3. Some fear both of the above.
I am more of the first one from the above with only a slight fear of the second one. I vomited last week. It wasn't so bad.. The lead up to it isn't fun.. but when the time comes you are so ready to get relief.
Why are we scared of something that is, in itself, absolutely harmless? Here's my theory..
It's simple: Control.
We see ourselves as being in control of all things that pertain to us. All good things and bad things happen because of my actions. The internal thoughts and ideas shape the world around me.. It's an actual theory called the "Locus of Control".
Wikipedia explains it better than I can: Here
Dr. Angela L. Davidson et al. conducted an experiment where it was concluded through various surveys that people suffering from emetophobia are more likely to have an internal locus of control pertaining to their everyday life as well as health-related matters.[2] A locus of control is an individual’s perception of where control comes from. Having an internal locus of control means that an individual perceives that they have their own control over a situation whereas an external locus of control means that an individual perceives that some things are out of their control. She explains how this phobia is created through the locus of control by stating, “Thus far, it seems reasonable to stipulate that individuals with a vomiting phobia deem events as being within their control and may therefore find it difficult to relinquish this control during the act of vomiting, thus inducing a phobia.”[2]

So what is the answer?

* If you are a Christian like I am, it is hard to swallow the idea that you have control issues.. because we know that God controls all things at all times. However I read all throughout the Bible of men who feared lots of things. Godly men who knew better. Peter was standing in the presence of Jesus in person and he all of a sudden was afraid of his surroundings. So just losing a fear based on my faith is easier said than done. But that IS the answer. If someone is going to vomit, and it is God's will.. all my fear and running cannot make it go away. The answer is giving up. Accepting.

* If you are one who fears vomiting, know that you will be 100% fine. In fact you will feel instantly better. It is a natural process that your body is going through for a specific purpose. As gross as it is, when you think about it, it is actually quite an exquisite thing. It is the body working on your behalf to save you from a much worse outcome. This is why when you get food poisoning you throw up as your first symptom. Your body is saying.."Hey there is something in here that can hurt you..I'm going to get rid of it for you. I got this!" It is the build up that is so scary and so rough. It can literally feel like you are going to die. But you will not die. You will throw up, it will be gross, and then you will feel better. Trust me.. I had it last week.. I threw up.. and I remember thinking right after "That was not near as bad as I had remembered it being." I did not think "Oh that was fun, let's do it again." No.. I hated it. But I survived it quite easily and without any harm. So if you are going to throw up.. JUST DO IT!! 

* Do your best to walk into the lion's den. Stop running. Avoidance breeds avoidance, and eventually can lead to isolation, and agoraphobia (fear of leaving the house). The more you run.. the more you will keep running forever. If someone gets sick at school or work, go back the next day even if it is killing you inside. Make yourself uncomfortable so that you can function. Trust me, when you go home you will smile, and you will be elated just that you did it. You faced it and survived.

* And just praise God that you are alive and that you get to experience this life in all it's glory. All it's beautiful and sometimes unpleasant glory. And think of people who work in hospitals and police stations who see this day in and day out. That might also make you appreciate your surroundings and even overcome some of your fears.

Lastly, go online and talk to others who fear the same things. Remember some have similar fears, just about different things (fainting, falling, dizziness, etc..) talk to those people.. help them, or let them help you. A great place to do this would be emetophobia.org

Wednesday, February 06, 2013

The Worst KO In Ultimate Fighter History... Maybe Even UFC History?

This is from last night's Ultimate Fighter: Team Jones Vs. Team Sonnen. It will be talked about for years to come no doubt. And no matter how the season ends up.. Uriah Hall will be in the UFC one way or another. He has a lot to learn, but he is a dangerous, dangerous man.

WARNING: This is pretty graphic. Extreme violence.

Saturday, February 02, 2013

More Paul Washer Quotes

Most of these quotes make me tremble in fear. Not fear of Paul Washer.. But fear that one day I will answer to God for what I did and did not do in His name. Paul Washer is a fearless man that gets invited to speak in a lot of churches one time, because he makes Christians uncomfortable. He forces us to realize that the Disney Land Churches of America are not necessarily going to avoid being spewed out of the mouth of God.

All quotes compiled from TruthSource.net. Click the link and you can find a lot more resources.

"In modern day evangelism, this precious doctrine [of regeneration] has been reduced to nothing more than a human decision to raise one's hand, walk an aisle, or pray a 'sinner's prayer.' As a result, the majority of Americans believe that they've been 'born again' even though their thoughts, words, and deeds are a continual contradiction to the nature and will of God." ~ Paul Washer

"How do you respond when someone comes to you and tells you that you have sinned? When some friend or some person you barely know comes to you with the Word to convict you of something you've done wrong? Do you buckle against that? Do you stand up and fight that? Do you immediately say, 'No way! You're judging, you're this, you're that!'? Or do you ponder their words as if they could be true? Do you think about it for a while? Are you sensitive? Or are you hard-hearted, and proud? You say, 'If God wants to show me my sin, He can do it.' Yes He can; sometimes He uses individuals to do it. How will you respond to a messenger from God? Because that will tell me alot about how you will respond to God." ~ Paul Washer

"I would not send my child to a vacation Bible school in 99.9% of the Baptist churches in America. Have some teacher that doesn't even understand anything about the gospel of Jesus Christ, ask those little children, 'How many of you want to go to Heaven?' and damn most of them! Harden their heart to the gospel with some silly profession of faith because it was a silly proclamation of the gospel! It brought no genuine repentance, it brought no faith; it's no different than the Roman church that baptizes every infant that is born." ~ Paul Washer

"The greatest act of judgment that God can pour out on a people is being poured out on America, and it is this: He's taken away the knowledge of God, and He's closed the mouth of those who are supposed to be speaking for Him. So that little boys lead us with their silly little ideas and we like it that way, because we really do want our best life now." ~ Paul Washer, sermon, "The Great Privilege."

"How dare we, all these stupid evangelists walking around telling men after they've made some little prayer that they need to write their name in the back of their Bible, and put the date and if the devil ever comes to them, they need to show him that. That is Roman superstition, it is not the gospel of Jesus Christ. You see, we've turned the gospel into a flu-shot." ~ Paul Washer

"All the decisions you make…how many of those decisions are based on you doing simply what's right in your own eyes, and how many times specifically have you gone to Scripture looking for the answer, with regard to anything?" ~ Paul Washer, sermon, "Dating, Courtship, and Marriage."

"How many of you are guiding your life based on principles, commands, and laws, and statements of wisdom that Jesus has given? How many Christians do you actually know that are living that way? 'Depart from Me, those of you who said, 'Lord Lord,' and considered yourselves to be My disciples, but you lived as though I never gave you a law to obey.' [Matt. 7:23]" ~ Paul Washer, sermon, "Dating, Courtship, and Marriage."

"Jesus Christ has done more than die for you on a tree; He told you how you're supposed to live and you have no right to live any other way. I'm sorry, that's discipleship…this Lord, He's Lord of absolutely everything… How much of your life is defined by what the word of God says, by what Jesus says, and how much of it is defined by culture? Just think about that. How many Christians do you know could open up a Bible and go down biblically, verse by verse, and show you why they do what they do in their relationship with the opposite sex…and tell you this is why I dress this way, this is why I talk this way, this is why I'm in college? Almost no one." ~ Paul Washer, sermon, "Dating, Courtship, and Marriage."

"Entering in the narrow gate is allowing Him to define your life, and not in general terms. See, there's your problem. 'Oh, Jesus is everything to me, and Jesus is Lord.' Okay, specifically though, explain to me what that means: what has it cost you, how have you changed your life from the course the rest of the world is walking in?" ~ Paul Washer, sermon, "Dating, Courtship, and Marriage."

"The evidence that you truly repented long ago when you said you did is because you're still repenting now and even to a greater degree. The evidence that you believed a long time ago is that you're still believing now and ever more believing in greater and greater degrees." ~ Paul Washer, sermon, "I am Not Ashamed of the Scandal."

"If Jesus Christ isn't strong enough to motivate you to live biblically, you don't know Him at all." ~ Paul Washer

"If [following Jesus Christ] doesn't cost you anything, it's because you've bought into 'American Christianity.'" ~ Paul Washer, sermon, "Dating, Courtship, and Marriage."

"If you are going to walk with Jesus Christ, you are going to be opposed by everything in the world and by the great majority of evangelicals. You're going to be opposed." ~ Paul Washer, sermon, "Dating, Courtship, and Marriage."

"I believe alot of churches in America are not churches." ~ Paul Washer

"[The 4 spiritual laws and sinner's prayer] is not the gospel of Jesus Christ, and that methodology and envangelism has done more to hurt this country than every heresy introduced by every cult combined. Millions of people in this country whose lives have never been changed believed themselves born again because we have so reduced the gospel of Jesus Christ that it means now nothing more than simple decision that will only take five minutes of your time." ~ Paul Washer

"A true Christian will be sensitive to the sin in their life and it will lead them to brokenness and genuine confession, but the person who says they are a Christian and are not sensitive to sin, it does not lead them to confession, a person who is that way is not a Christian." ~ Paul Washer

"The church is in trouble—that's what they say anyways. The problem is most of what they call the church is not the church, and the church is not quite as in trouble as everybody thinks. As a matter of fact, the church today is absolutely beautiful—she's glorious, she's humble, she's broken, and she's confessing her sin. The problem is what everybody's calling the church today isn't the church. Basically, by and large, what's called the church today is nothing more than a bunch of unconverted church people with unconverted pastors." ~ Paul Washer

"Sunday morning in America is the greatest hour of idolatry in the whole week. Why? Because most people who are even worshiping God, are worshiping a God they don't know. They're worshiping a god that looks more like Santa Claus than the God of Scripture. They're worshiping a god that is a figment of their own imagination. They created a god in their own likeness and they worship the god they've made." ~ Paul Washer, sermon, "The Great Privilege."

"Sunday morning is the greatest hour of idolatry in the entire week in America, because people are not worshiping the one true God…but are worshiping a god formed out of their own heart by their own flesh, satanic devices, and worldly intelligence. They've made a god just like themselves and he looks more like Santa Claus than he does Yahweh." ~ Paul Washer, sermon, "Ten Indictments Against the Modern Church."

"Most people today in our churches are lost, and they demonstrate that they are lost because their entire Christianity is nothing more than, 'They made a decision.'" ~ Paul Washer, sermon, "The Great Privilege."

"We as Americans are the wealthiest Christians who ever walked on the face of the earth. We are the most protected Christians that ever walked on the face of the earth, and yet we are the emptiest Christians who ever walked on the face of the earth." ~ Paul Washer, sermon, "The Great Privilege."

"The truth is this: I am a Southern Baptist, and the great majority of Southern Baptists are lost." ~ Paul Washer

"I have great assurance when I study my own conversion, when I discuss it with other men, when I look over the 25 years of my pilgrimmage with Christ; I have great assurance of having come to know Him. But even now, if I were to depart from the faith and walk away and keep going in that direction into heresy and worldiness, it could be the greatest of proofs that I never knew Him, that the whole thing was a work of the flesh." ~ Paul Washer, sermon, "Ten Indictments Against the Modern Church."

"If you have made the good profession, if you claimed to have passed through the gate, if you have received baptism in a public declaration of your faith, and you begin to walk—it doesn't matter how long it appears you're walking in that path—if you step off that path and there's no discipline and you continue on that path, you can have no assurance whatsoever of your salvation. And it is not that you lost your salvation, it's that you're showing now that you never had it. If we would only preach these truths…" ~ Paul Washer

"When you refuse to teach on the radical depravity of men, it is an impossibility that you bring glory to God, His Christ, and His cross, because the cross of Jesus Christ and the glory thereof is most magnified when it's placed in front of the backdrop of our depravity!" ~ Paul Washer, sermon, "Ten Indictments Against the Modern Church."

"Natural man is a fallen creature, he is morally corrupt, and he is Hell-bent on autonomy or self-government. He hates God because God is righteous, and he hates God's laws because they censor him and restrict his evil. He hates the truth because it exposes him for what he is and troubles what is left of his conscience. Therefore fallen man seeks to push the truth—especially the truth about God—as far from him as he can possibly remove it. He will go to any extent to suppress the truth, even to the point of pretending that there is no such thing as truth, or that if it does exist, it cannot be known or have any bearing on our lives." ~ Paul Washer

"You love to listen to the very same things that nailed your supposed Savior to the tree?" ~ Paul Washer

"You love to listen to the very things that nailed your supposed Master to the tree?! Come off of it, man! Become a hellion, give yourself to demons, run wild; but don't come in here saying you're a believer and playing that game! You want to dance with the devil, then dance all night long! But don't come in here dancing with Christ for a moment, and then go back out there and share your love." ~ Paul Washer, sermon, "Examine Yourself."

"Men, your primary responsibility in your home, after your wife, is you to disciple your own children. And if you don't do it, you're in sin; you are in sin. And if you turn it over to a Sunday school teacher, you are in sin. And you are to be teaching these children more than just stories about animals that went into Noah's ark. You're to be teaching them about God, about radical depravity, about blood atonement, about propitiation, expiation, justification, sanctification; you are to teach your children!" ~ Paul Washer, sermon, "The Christian Life," part 1.

"Your children will go to public school … and they will be trained for somewhere around 15,000 hours in ungodly secular thought. And then they'll go to Sunday school and they'll color a picture of Noah's ark. And you think that's going to stand against the lies that they are being told?" ~ Paul Washer, sermon, "The Christian Life," part 1.

"If you want to follow Jesus because He'll fix your marriage, if you want to follow Jesus because He'll give you a better life, that's idolatry. Follow Christ for the sake of Christ; He is worthy!" ~ Paul Washer, sermon, "The Christian Life," part 1.

"This is evangelicalism today: sensual, carnal, unconverted people that have just enough deceptive religion to drive them straight into Hell! Are you that kind of person? Or do you have new affections?" ~ Paul Washer

"I want to submit to you tonight that this country is not gospel-hardened; it is gospel-ignorant because most of its preachers are. And let me repeat this: the malady in this country is not liberal politicians, the root of socialism, Hollywood, or anything else; it is the so-called evangelical pastor, preacher, and evangelist of our day. That is where the malady is to be found." ~ Paul Washer, sermon, "Ten Indictments Against the Modern Church."

"‎We have taken the glorious gospel of our blessed God and reduced it down to four spiritual laws and five things God wants you to know, with a little superstitious prayer at the end; and if someone repeats it after us with enough sincerity, we popishly declare them to be born again. We've traded regeneration for decisionism." ~ Paul Washer, sermon, "Ten Indictments Against the Modern Church."

"What is holiness? … The end product of what holiness is … it's to love God in the same way He loves Himself; it's to esteem God as much as He esteems Himself, and to separate yourself unto that love, and to keep yourself in that love." ~ Paul Washer, sermon on "Matthew 5."

"Those who would send out thousands of questionnaires asking the unconverted what they would desire most in a worship service should realize that ten thousand unanimous opinions of carnal men do not carry the authority of one jot or tittle of God's Word." ~ Paul Washer, "The Gospel's Power and Message," p. 7.

"We live in a culture bound by sin like bands of iron. Moral stories, quaint maxims, and life lessons shared from the heart of a beloved pulpiteer or spiritual life coach have no real power against such darkness. We need preachers of the gospel of Jesus Christ who know the Scriptures, and by God's grace face any culture with the cry, 'Thus saith the Lord!'" ~ Paul Washer, "The Gospel's Power and Message," p. 8.

"To receive and follow the gospel call is to reject all that can be seen with the eye and held in the hand in exchange for what cannot be seen. It is to reject personal autonomy and the right to self-government in order to enslave oneself to a Messiah who died two thousand years ago as an enemy of the state and a blasphemer. It is to reject the majority and its views in order to join oneself to a berated and seemingly insignificant minority called the church. It is to risk everything in this one and only life in the belief that this impaled prophet is the Son of God and the Savior of the world. To receive the gospel is not merely to pray a prayer asking Jesus to come into one's heart, but it is to put away the world and embrace the fullness of the claims of Christ." ~ Paul Washer, "The Gospel's Power and Message," pp. 9-10.

Friday, February 01, 2013

Should A Man Rule Over His Wife? Think Again...

Your one job is to kill off your own self-desires in order to glorify Christ. Making her your slave does not glorify Christ in the slightest.